Would you believe me if I told you that when I was young I desperately wanted to look like a ballerina?
That I used to limit myself to two pieces of toast with peanut butter and one bowl of fruit every day?
That I would make secret trips to CVS to buy Cool Ranch Doritos, Honey Bunches of Oats, Peanut Butter M&Ms and Oreos and then eat most of them in one sitting?
Would you believe me if I told you that I used to do an hour of cardio a day?
That everyday I ran 6 miles?
That I would cry if I couldn’t make it to the gym?
Would you believe me if I told you that I never lost any weight?
That I thought there was something wrong with me?
That I had a thyroid problem?
Would you believe me if I told you that I was never happy with my body?
That I always wanted to look different?
That I always wanted to be thin and have skinny legs?
Would you believe me if I told you that all of the above is true?
Now, would you believe me if I told you that I’m finally satisfied with my powerful legs?
That I love my strong body for the first time in my life?
That I don’t think about losing weight all day, everyday?
That I eat bacon and all kind of fatty things and I’m happy about it?
That I exercise because I love moving my body and not because I need to burn calories?
Would you believe me if I told you I was truly happy?
Well, I am.
I know that I’m not perfect.
I’m always learning, changing and growing.
I still eat pints of Ben & Jerry’s in one sitting and spoonfuls of peanut butter topped with chocolate chips.
I still eat fried buffalo chicken fingers dipped in blue cheese every now and then.
I still have days where I want to be thinner, but I’m firmly grounded in myself and I can now pull myself happily back to reality.
Would you believe me if I told you that I’m not perfect?
Probably…because I’m not.
Would you believe me if I told you that everything I just told you made me want to become a health counselor?
That I want to support and guide others to find food freedom and real happiness with their bodies…just like I did?
Well, it’s true.