Disclaimer: The Friday Musings posts are where I tend to get a bit more personal than the rest of the week. Just so you know…
I just caught up on all of my favorite podcasts.
Including the Live, Love, Eat podcast with Stefani Ruper of Paleo for Women.
Something in this interview jarred my soul. I was walking down the street and literally stopped and took a breath.
George talked about how he had healed his relationship with food and his body and now that he’s secure and happy, he has nothing to prove to anyone, but himself.
Nothing to prove to anyone.
I’ve been working diligently to heal my body image for a while now.
But the thought of having nothing to prove took me by surprise.
You see, I’m a type A, overachiever type.
I’ve always been proving things.
Mostly to myself, but also to other people.
The thought of having nothing to prove literally brought tears to my eyes.
For some reason, I’d never thought about it like that.
Even though I’m more secure and happy with myself than I’ve ever been, I still feel the need to prove myself.
- To prove my intelligence.
- To prove my value as a nutrition professional.
- To prove that I’m an athlete.
I didn’t realize that part of my happiness rested in how I think others feel about me. It’s crazy freeing to think about being secure enough to stop proving myself.
So. That’s what I’m exploring now: affirming that I have nothing to prove.
That I’m okay just the way I am.
Do you feel like you have something to prove? Either to yourself or to others?
Have ideas of how to stop proving yourself?
Feel free to email me if you’d like to share— I’d love to hear your thoughts.